Like A Dream

I never meant to hurt you mom :'(

Assalamualaikum w.b.t.

Argghhh!!! sedihnya aku :'(
Ya Allah ampunkan dosa-dosaku ya Allah . Aku telah lukakan hati umi ku . Umi i'm so sorry :'(

Mom, I'm Sorry........

umi sha sayang umi . i'm sorry umi i never meant to hurt you . i'm sorry for everything I've done to you . I'm sorry for being a bad daughter . and i'm sorry for making feel like a bad mother . i'm really sorry umi for everything :'((

I'm sorry for all the times that i can't control myself . and the times that i was wrong . but i realized how lucky am i to have you in my life . you've been there all along . i don't mean to hurt you . you are the greatest mother and my bestfriend . i love you so much umi .

Berdosanya aku kerana buat umi aku menitiskan air mata . hari ini umi aku pergi Singapore hantar adik aku . aku tak dapat cakap apa-apa kat dia . pagi-pagi umi aku masuk bilik aku dan bagitahu dia dah nak jalan . aku hanya salam dan dia cium pipi aku . yang lain aku tak seberapa dengar aku masi mamai time tu .

Umi aku tinggalkan sekeping kertas .

Umi jalan dulu,sha maafkan umi sayang, umi tahu umi telah lukakan hati sha tapi sha juga mesti faham perasaan umi . umi tidak ada niat sayang cuma semalam umi terkilan dengan sikap sha . umi tidak sangka anak umi boleh cakap macam itu . seolah-olah umi gagal didik sha . umi tidak mahu jadi apa-apa so umi jalan macam itu tanpa hiraukan sha . umi tahu salah umi . i'm so sorry my dear .

Umi bukan salah umi . sha yang terlalu ikutkan hati . sha yang silap berkata seperti itu pada umi . umi ajar sha dengan nilai-nilai murni . umi selalu bagi nasihat pada sha . tapi sha pulak boleh cakap macam itu . maafkan sha umi . sha sayang sangat dengan umi .

Ayah kata umi menangis . pertama kali sha menyinggung perasaan umi . dan buat pertama kali umi titiskan air mata di sebabkan perkataan sha yang sha keluarkan . sha tahu sha sangat berdosa . ampunkan dosa sha umi . umi i miss you so much :'(

Sha menyesal umi . sha terlalu ikutkan hati sha . sha ego umi . sha sepatutnya mengalah tapi sha tetap bekeras . maafkan anak umi yang degil ini . betul kata umi hanya sha yang umi kena faham . tapi umi sha tak pernah nak faham pun walau sedikit . umi maafkan sha atas semua itu .

Bodohnya sha terlalu ikutkan perasaan sha . lepas ni lama lagi baru kita jumpa kan umi ? umi akan ke Rusia . raya mungkin tak dapat sambut sama-sama . umi sha betul-betul menyesal . sha minta ampun umi . ampunkan dosa-dosa sha .

Shasha

This is me!

Shasha ;
☆ Name :N. Shahidatull Zuehaila Mohd Sharull Nizam
☆ Call Me : Sha / shasha / honey
☆ Birthday : 9 September 1993
☆ State : Sabah < currently study in sarawak>
Likes ;
☆ A Muslimah girl
☆ I Love ISLAM
☆ I Love My Family
☆ Sung Min , Sehun , Luhan , Lee Teuk, Ljoe and Sung Jong ☆ Super Junior, EXO-K, BTOB, Nuest, CN Blue, Ft Island, Infinite, BAP, SNSD, T-ara and all kpop band ☆ I Love Purple Damn much
☆ Kpop
☆ Blogging/Blogwalking
☆ Reading
☆ Tweet-ing
☆ Chocolate
☆ One Direction
☆ Talk
☆ have a huge dream

Hates ;
☆ Hypocrites
☆ Pretender
☆ Arrogant People
☆ Copypasters
☆ Kpop Haters
☆ Haters
☆ Annoying Person
☆ Liars

I am a person who is positive about every aspect of life. There are many things I like to do, to see, and to experience. I like to read, I like to write . I like to think . I like to dream . I like to talk . I like to listen . This is a brief introduction of myself . If you are interested in knowing more . read my entry . Do not expect too much . and keep your sense of humor . Future is really something which can’t be defined and bounded in any boundaries. Its certainly can’t be decided too. Yes I have some plans and goals that I have decided for me but its better to keep them a secret for now. Lets see where life takes me? Yes whatever I shall be doing, I guarantee you that it will be with full passion and dedication My life and my self are not really limited to one thing or aspect. I love to learn new things, expanding my horizon of knowledge in every aspect. Life is so short and this world is so big. There is so much out there to learn. My mantra for life is that believe in your self , stay focused and keep going. If you know what you are doing is not wrong than don’t be afraid from doing it ever.Have faith in yourself and on God . Value your relations and people in them. Help those who need you. Give smiles and spread happiness as much you can and it will come back to you in doubles.